On October 13, 2017, I went to the place where many Cambodian, who experienced the Khmer Rouge regime, are afraid to go, the Choeung Ek Killing Field. I went there with two friends, Sreyneang and Kimseng and two teachers from Melbourne Girls Grammar school in Australia, Nathalie and Matt. It was hard for me as a Cambodian new generation to visit such a painful, and crucial place. I visited it once and I already experienced it. Before I went there for the second time, I am aware of the events and things that I will see. But everytime I step in the killing field, I felt like I was in the regime and I can see everything that happened on this place. Last time I visited it, there is a tour guide touring us around the campus. This time, I get to use the audio. It is a very different experience. By listening to the audio, it dig me deeper into my heart and I felt more pain as I listened to victims explaining and sharing their own experience. How would you feel walking on the grass and stepping on the place where ten of thousands of Cambodian includes, intellectual, soldiers, women, and kids were executed. Sad, depress, miserable, sorrowful, and more feeling causes me to stop the tour. But, I kept reminding myself that I have to be strong and I should continue my journey in this because by learning about it, I can prevent the history to repeat itself. As a change agent, I would change Cambodia and won’t let this horrible events happen on my country again.